Friday, September 6, 2013

I don't care if you don't.

You know the last thing my therapist said to me?
"Promise you wont kill yourself"

I didn't plan on it. I don't really ever think of it. Its gotten more frequent lately. I've posted some things that prepared me to go. But the method is hard. I don't drown. I don't think I have the pills for it. I don't have access to anything sharp (oops) I've always wanted to jump. 
Statistic time.

Two thirds of survivors from jumping realize all of their problems have solutions on the way down. 

Do my problems have solutions?
Do I really know what my own problems are?
What makes it a problem? 
Can I stick my head through a window yet? 

I need more pills. Not okay.